"Patience, Lewis. We're only human." - Robocop (Robocop 2)
It's been a few weeks since my last entry. Like most people this time of year, life catches up with us and time flies faster than we want. I'd like to get a little personal in this entry and explain my absence. I know I'm the resident movie guy here on the site. If this type of blog entry isn't your cup of tea, I understand. Feel free to stop reading. Everything will be back to normal with my writing for BWB starting with my entry after this one.
2020 has been a shit show for everyone for many reasons: politics, Covid-19, racial injustice, and more. And with that frustration comes anger. With that anger comes self-centeredness. And with that, comes fighting. Or like Yoda said,"Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering." And the most we've had to fear this year is the unknown. Now let me get to the point of my rambling.
Over the last few months, lots of many things have happened to me in my life that sadly changed my personality for the worse. Not to get any sympathy, but a few examples are: A family member was diagnosed with cancer and had to have surgery (successfully) to get it removed. I had an aunt die by a fall. Watching the health, both mentally and physically, of my parents go downhill. And that's also dealing with Covid, schooling our daughter at home, my own mental and physical health, and more.
The point of this lame pity party is just what I mentioned before. It turned me into someone I didn't want to be and someone I didn't realize I was becoming until a falling out of sorts with a friend. Through out that falling out, I woke up of sorts and saw how I was acting. The negativity. Everything I was saying or doing wasn't the way I used to do it. It was all coming to a head and it was being lashed out at people I knew, liked, and loved. And then it made me realize this: we are respomsible for our own actions. No one else.
Everyone has rough patches in their lives. And everyone deals with it differently. However, in the end, our actions are our own. Now matter what I did to whomever, I did it. People tend to say "we're all adults." And that's true. "We" also means me. We act on our own accord, no matter how shitty our lives are at the time. I'm just happy my recent bridges weren't burned beyond repair.
My point is after all of this is to remember what you're doing. Think before you act. Know that what you do may have consequences and may also affect second or third parties. It may affect friends, family members, or more. We're all human. We all make mistakes. We all heal from those mistakes. Try your best to bury that hatchet. The saying is true: treat others how you want to be treated. Even if your life is in the dumps now, there's someone that has it worse. This recent hiatus from the site due to certain things opened my eyes to that. And with that opening, I can move forward to change my life. You can too. 2020 has sucked the big one. We all need to stick together. Get along and not tear each other down. I found that out the hard way. Hopefully to anyone still reading this, you won't have to. And if you are still reading, thank you for letting me vent and purge. I promise we'll be back to our regularly scheduled programming next time. Thank you very much, take care, be excellent to each other, and party on dudes!
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